It was a hard week. It started with
some small stuff and then crescendoed into a major shit storm...then
the dam burst. It felt as though something primordeal had been laying
dormant within me and the time had come for it to make its presence
known. I started screaming, gut wrenching, fist pounding, gasping for
breath, screaming. It was surreal, hypnotic. Emotionally raw, ugly. I
thought, for just a moment, that I might never stop screaming. I'm
not sure how much time passed, but I did stop.
How long have I been
fighting? I'm tired. I'm thouroughly and utterly exhausted.
As I lay on my bed spent,
a bubble of thought arose:
I will stop fighting and
let the waves wash over me like soft ripples.
I will stop fighting
I will let the waves wash
over me
just
soft
ripples
and this is how I will
step into my next chapter.
I appreciate your "rawness" and I can relate.
ReplyDeleteIt has passed for the time being. I like to write, it feels cathartic. It's also nice to let other people know they are not in it alone. We all have those kinds of days/weeks/months. Thanks for reading and taking the time to respond. Much love and light to each of you.
DeleteLisa
I am sorry you are going through a tough time, I hope letting it out helped.
ReplyDeleteIt has passed for the time being. I like to write, it feels cathartic. It's also nice to let other people know they are not in it alone. We all have those kinds of days/weeks/months. Thanks for reading and taking the time to respond. Much love and light to each of you.
DeleteLisa
Sounds like my week but expressed so much better...mine had alot more four letter words. I did go to yoga yesterday in the eye of the storm and yes it did help...I hope that your week and your karma take a shift towards more beauty and calm and less stormy weather.
ReplyDeleteIt has passed for the time being. I like to write, it feels cathartic. It's also nice to let other people know they are not in it alone. We all have those kinds of days/weeks/months. Thanks for reading and taking the time to respond. Much love and light to each of you.
ReplyDeleteLisa